& my world will be coloured.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

i dunno wad song should i insert into this blog. everything seems so blur. i cant think. ok. so, i went youtube and search for a song. and it lead me to this song. well, you know how far can you go in youtube. i ended up with A Beautiful Piano Song by Jervy Hou. he composed this song by himself. i felt that it's lovely. well, just to take a break from mainstream songs, or those you hear from mtv or perfect 10, i just want something light and.. please to hear. hah.

i always wanted to learn the piano. seriously. its interesting to see the player hitting those notes and produce awesome sound. this simply reminds me of either derek or sunarto. i still remember the time when i went back to bartley for band, and they taught me how to play Happy Birthday To You. haha. so sweet of them. since i stepped out from sec sch, i think i lost toch with music. really lost touch with it. i wanna play music once again. but i dunno where to begin now. hais. nvm.

its not that i dun wanna update this blog, but seriously, i duno wad else to write. nth BIG happened. hahah. if u get wad i mean. just that my relative got married to this north carolina guy. yeah. he kinda converted. his new name is raihan osbourne. hah. during the wedding, i was asked to be the video camera girl. ugh. but it was fun. i mean, i can get up close with the pair. hah. mind you, raihan is TALL and BIG. not bog as in fat, but simply.. BIG. hhaha.

i received my results and looks like 3 modules sucked big time. realy sucked big time! hah.

this thurs gf wil be coming over to my crib for some cooking session. haha. we decided to make roasted chicken (maybe with black pepper sauce), mashed potato and garden salad. and here comes the best part. for dessert, we're making double choco cake!! im sure we gonna have a blast, right aqidah? hahahhahaa! ((: mum, being kind enuff, decided to let us use the oven. hahahaha! YAAY. ((:

and tmr, im going out with dear. (: maybe last outing before the fasting month starts. he will end his paper on thurs and start workign on the very day after his papers. hais. next week will be start of the month of ramadhan. wahhhhhhh. time pass by so fasttt! i think this time round, it will be a fast one. not like last year. DRAGGY. ugh.

alright. shall end here. mum said that there will be this guy coming over to send her vouchers. i dunno wad is it. BUT, im kinda pissed. cause this guy is not here yet! ughhhhhhhhhh!

alright then. i shall wait. (: and wait, and wait.....

cause my life is all abut waiting, isnt it?

Fif ♥ 3:05 PM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

love me the way u did.
brace me like the way u did.
tell me that things will turn out fine.
whisper me words of love.

and i'll be flying high with you.
how i wish. how i really wish.

Fif ♥ 10:41 PM

I SIMPLY HATE THINGS THE WAY IT IS RIGHT NOW.

can someone please tell me what should i do?

Fif ♥ 2:29 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008

I'M GETTING MORE AND MORE CONFUSED.

ignore the above sentence. so once again, i stayed at home for one whole day, doing nothing that i love to do. i did the luandry. ok. fine. i admit. i am a laundry virgin. by now, i think i should be okay handling the washing machine. hhhhaha..
managed to cook breakfast, clean up my room. my room have this green apple smell. yaaay! (: thanks to this air ventilator + air refreshener thing.
other than that, there was nothing that got me excited.
im tired and my head is like spinning.
& i dunno why. hais.
i think i wanna play SIMS. yes. NOW.
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
again, ignore above and say bye to me. cause im saying bye to you. ugh~! wadever that means lahhh! IM TIRED. so ok. bye.

thanks qid. ur messages were helpful to me. i dunno wad can i do without you.

i'll be gone for now. i hope when the day comes, & when you turn around, you don't address me as your friend.

Fif ♥ 9:39 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

it will be ok to say that yesterday i kinda had a blast going out with my fam. hahah. ((:
firstly, i visited grandpa. and he is wayyyyyyyyy much better now. hahaha. he can even eat putu piring. coool. ((: met my relatives there for a short while. chat, eat junk food (at the hospital, oh my. my grandad's ward have vacancy for just one more. )
after visiting him, we went afghanistan to eat. nope. we didnt catch any flight. its somewhere near tampines, i guess. (: hah. that time i was involved in the junior band fest as an official and i missed that outin with my family. hahaha. they went there to eat. well, i tried their food yesterday. not bad. ((: its like.. "can go twice" kinda thing. ugh wadever that means hahaha.
and den we went Giant at tampines. mum wanna buy groceries. ((: and as usual, there will be things that i wanna include in her list. and so, i made up my mind. i wanna bake. mum. being kind enuff, she let me buy my stuffs. to start off my week of cooking and baking, tmr i might be cooking fried rice for lunch and be making jelly cocktail for dessert. (:haha. after Giant, we proceed to IKEA. (:
we checked out some dining tables. mum wanna change them. (: yaaaaaaaay! (: ahhaa. bro, dad and i went to play 'when the price is right'. hahahhahaa. damn fun and everyone is looking at us. (: and and and.. guess wad i've bought? vanilla scented candles. (: ahhhh. i love the smell. i love the mixed berries ones too. but.. mum said i can only buy 1 for the moment. hahaha! so in the end, i bought 1. (: mum also bought some french wad? i forgotten. (gees, im old. DAMN.) all i know its like those blinds/binds that is meant for the kitchen windows. hahah. we gonna have a new makeover of the kitchen. yaay-ness! ((:

so today i did nothing much. lazy arnd. help mum cook, and i make some jemput-jemput pisang. i dunno how to put it in english terms, but its like banana fritters, i guess. hahahahhhaha! ok. so much as a writer. LOL. other than that, i sat arnd, make myslf bulky at home. ((: and obviously there's bro to irritate me. (:
to be honest, my lappy batt is running low. so i guess i shall end here. im reading another novel. (: toooodles. (:
BTW! congrats to team singapore, for winning SILVER in the table tennis womens competition against china. (such a nerve-wrecking game) hahahha! till then!

i am not happy with u if u ask me whether i am. go fix urself. im not running away from u. i got to do whatever i got to do. for once, i got nth to say. im happy cause i made myself clear this time round and i knw wad i want. but i dint say that im happy becos of this whole thing. let u be in the darkness now and feel a certain loss in your life. this time, everything seems bullshit to me. pure bullshit.

Fif ♥ 9:56 PM

Friday, August 15, 2008

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

i kept doing housework alone at home for the past 3 days. well, school's out and i totally switched into servant mode. sweep, vacuum, dishes, laundry and the corridors. ugh. i think mum should pay me. im turning into a part-time maid! well, i think in this case, full time. to take my mind off the housework awhile, i went swimming with bro just now. it started off fun but it ended up boring, so we headed home. ugh. hah. so.. nth much.
grandpa's condition got better and im so glad. dad and bro went to see him again today. but mum and i decided to stay at home. im so exhausted. tmr, i dunno wad plans mum and dad have but, i hope it will be an enjoyable one. mum said that she wanna have a steamboat at home. thanks for the diet plan though. (bleah).
i still have yet to upload the photos of ndp. but.. blogger is giving me an attitude. so, i shall not be bothered by that kinda crap. hence, i dun think i will upload any photos now. well, prolly i might not update photos for quite some time. hah.
i told u guys that im reading this book written by niki shisler right? she's awesome. she's frank, she's funny and the most incredible thing, she reach out to my heart. her words kinda play in my head for qiute some time. these 2 grabbed my attention though:
"What's the worst that could hapen? where does your darkest fear lie?"
"We need to belong to each other, to anchor ourselves in the web of relationships; so we build our networks, our families and we risk our hearts because that is what makes a life."
she ought to win some kind of an award or something. that book is all about her life. and i find it extraordinary. (:
SK asked me out for a run on sunday and ugh. i dun think i can make it. sorry sk, sorry leo. ugh.
wad else...... wad else.......
oh ya. i really find this random but wth. i wanna go jurong bird park and night safari. hah. i got 30% discount for the bird park and 50% discount for the night safari. hah. as usual, when geraldtan reads this,he sure wanna go. super kiasu bf of mine. (well, sometimes, luckily. not all the time). kiasu in a good way though. not those aunty and uncle kiasu. ugh. wadever that means. hah.
alright. i think i shall stop here. i seriously gt nth to write about. i dun wanna talk crap all the way. hah. okay then. night all. sweet dreams.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true

Fif ♥ 10:23 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

i think im repeating this for the milionth time.
i miss my loooooooooong hair. ((:
haha. ok. so.. hols in, sch's out. great. awesome.
i got nothing much to write in here. hahaa. well, i think there are tons.
but.. im just plain lazy. hey. im a busy woman. (:
where should i start..................?

alright.
happy belated birthday to........ SINGAPORE. (: hahaha. celebrated her birthday at the padang with my cousins. had a great time there despite the downpour. awww. but seriously, with those kids arnd, they make my day! ((:

i've been preety busy with this stupid PP. but lucky im over and done with it! (for the first draft only) i dunno whether andy will ask for re-work. even if he is, i HOPE he wunt ask for much. ugh. but nvm. jia you! ((:

i bought two new books! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. finally i can kill my time during hols readin books. u might be wondering why on earth i didnt borrow books from library. its because, your dear afifah simply couldnt return her books on time and in the end, she got fine by the NBL. go figure. (: so, i rather buy books & i could turn them into my very own collection. right now, im reading Fragile, by Niki Shisler. awesome writing.

bro will sit for his PLSE oral tmr. and i dunno why, im the one who is nervous. i pray/hope/wish that he could do well. i mean.. of coz i want him to go to the express stream just like me. but.. each to his own. his brain might not absorb more than mine? i dunno. i think being successful doesnt need u to be at the top, but being comfortable with the right thing u are doing and most imptly, you are enjoying it. (: so, whichever path adik choose, i wil be supporting him. during my PSLE and O level days, i never once care about wad ppl say. seriously. cause i knw wad's the best for me. i only seek advice from the teachers and my parents. other than that, i dun think im bothered to hear. thats why i cant understand why others come up to me and have multiple problems despite knowing wad is the root of the problem. they LISTEN to wad others say abt them soo much. ugh. nvm. skip that. as i say, each to his own. (:

grandpa just got admited to the hospital just now afternoon. and dad didnt even inform me. he informed me LATER. i heard the news from aunt. hais. mum came back from the office slightly earlier. and now, bro is sleeping and im here typing away. mum and dad called saying that they will be late. i hope grandpa is okay. hais. i cant imagine him going away. there will be no one to crack more jokes, no one to stop us from being loud at aunt hse, no one to scold us when we are playing soo loudly at the corridor. seeing him like this reminds me of late grandma. i really miss her. )): she's not only a grandma to me, but also a mother. i misssss her. i really do. i miss her cooking, her patience, her words, her soft voice, her smile, her laughter and the small actions she does in everyday life. oh god.

i think i shall stop here for today. i dun want to ramble on unnecessary things. my imagination is alrd getting wild. and i want to stop it here. just here.

will update soon in the days to come. pictures of NDP will be uploaded soon too. take care all and goodnight! ((:

Fif ♥ 9:58 PM

Friday, August 8, 2008

hhahahaha. okay. so... today was something rather interesting. yeah. i EVENTUALLY finish my PP and submit it to Andy for some checking. hahahah! and today i got some time to go back bartley! hahaha. with shyaq, aqidah and dear! hahahhaa. so funy lah! we saw lots and lots of ppl..! hahahaha. saw mr asmadi, ms soh, ms yong, mrs raj, mr concenciao and a few others! ahahaa. but sadly, mrs lydia yeo left for U.S alrd. ): thanks to shyaq for making me blur! hahahha.

i was sooooo excited and happy that i was able to step in 4e3 once again. (: i nearly burst to tears, i tell you. (: and.. yeah. hais. no matter wad, i think sec sch is the best! hahahaha. ((: here are the photos and.. yeah. hahaha.

oh ya! one more thing. tmr im going for ndp with sya, mirah, ayie, qilah and bro! hahaha. cousins outing! yipppee ai! hahhahaha. so happy. hahahha. ((: okay then. hmm. wad else..

oh. today is 08 08 08 right? hahaa. and dear and i did something FUN today. hahaha. try adding cheese to pepsi, and chilli to pepsi. (: cheese pepsi for dear, chilli pepsi for me. at the end of the day, he got me a chocolate! hahhaha. sweet! ((: nah, nth special for us on this day, but.. the date looks nice and we thought of doing something random! hahah. tiil then all!

haha. in class. (:

4eeeeee3!

im back to school. yaay!

she has been,always been, will be there for me. (:

the same exact place in mr asmadi's class!

and the chatters. (:

this. one used to be a stranger and turned out to be my all time good frend. another one used to be a stranger too and turned out to be my best frend.. and then....... u figure out urself. thanks.

oh yeah!

i TOLD u shyaq always got involved in student abuse. PPL, this is wad he does to me when i didnt do my maths questions PROPERLY, THE WAY HE WANT IT TO BE. bleahs!

spastic-ness.

when boredom strikes for the millionth time.

ahhhhh.

and this. picture perfect minus the tree. (:

ok.. nite ppl! and yup. the music. it's called.. jenny (867-5309) hahahhaha! i heard this first time on tv.. - don't forget the lyrics! (: you guys should catch it too!

Fif ♥ 11:07 PM

expired photos lah. hahah.

i love both of u!

my bro wahhhh.......... dah besar eh? LOL!

ok. short post here.
i LOVE my boyfy.
i MISS my cousin(s).
i HATE PP.
i DESPISE liars.
i ANTICIPATE the fasting month.

Im so tired. i need a break. good god, help.

Fif ♥ 12:15 AM

Sunday, August 3, 2008

i know that i've promised to upload photos of dear and i. but.. looks like.. i got to really DIG OUT those pictures. hahahhaa. and i got no time! ugh. even this, is a quick update.
so yesterday bro, dear and i went to watch the ndp preview. nope. not at the stadium, but just somwher arnd raffles place.. to catch the plane show.. and the foreworks! i love my canon cam! hahhaha. i took fantastic photos of the fireworks! hahahha. ((; ok. here are the photos. there are more EXPIRED photos, but... as for now, this will do. (: