& my world will be coloured.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

argh. forget abt my last post. i will never have the time to explain every single thing abt my previous post. hahaha. anw, i just wanna wish HAPPY BELATED BURFDAY TO NUR AQIDAH!! wuu. didnt get to see her to pass her burfday pressie. haha. shall do that one day. :) ANW GRL, YOU'RE 18. oh-oh. hahahaha. :) coming up next, mirah's burfday. aiyoh. may is not a good one lah. so many ppl's burfday. mirah is alrd interrogating me abt her present this year. ahhaha. :D

alright. so monday i attended chris lesson. damn fun lah. aiyoh. hahahha. i laughed my head's off the whole class. it's so.. literature kind. hhahha. fun fun fun. met syakir in his class for lunch and nothing much. talked crap as usual. oh. i met ALAN. he is damn hot lah can. hahha! :) but sadly..... hais. nvm. credits to syakir's big mouth! haha. but not as big as RABIA. omg. rabia is syakir's friend. and i swear whenever she see me, i felt like earthquake is attacking me and i questioned myself what i have done wrong to deserve this. she hug, touched, harassed and use unusual words towards me. omg. if i can file for sexual harassement, i think she will be the first lah. hahha. and then.. i went home with syakir's class. took bus wit sykir and daryl. so fun lah. :)
mudpie guy is super cute, faz a.k.a taufik batisah is so funny, danial abit thoing, shawn abit irritating, coegent abit uncle, rabia the tsunami. daryl the punk guy. super cute lah they all. ahha.

on tuesday. nothing much also. met up with syakir for lunch and i overcome another tsunami (rabia). afternoon, faz and danial went for audition for IG. hahha. FAZ CAN SING LAH. hahaha and then.. after school went back home with daryl and syakri again. took 161. hahha. fun! :) okay. here are some of the convos. enjoy!

me: hi rabia
rabia: HI KAK!
me thinking - since when i became her kakak (sister)?
rabia: kak, why u wear skirt?
me: why? cannot ar?
rabia: nanti takut skirt meletup.
me: WTH.

me: eh sya. this one is this.. this... (blah blah blah)
rabia touching my hair: kak, ur rambut bau beras.
me: WTF. hahah. den urs wil be bau hapak.

shawn: eh cheng hao. u watching? (the audition of faz and danial. we were talking abt it)
cheng hao(mudpir guy): huh? watch wad?
me: WAH.
the rest: wah lau. ahhahaahaha. audition.
me: no lah. wach tv. eh no. watch movie.
cheng hao: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

me kneel down on the floor during faz's audition
shawn: eh. ur legs like weighin machine.
me: WEIGHING MACHINE?! lucky u never say i AM the weighing machine. -.-

me passing syakir some coins
cheng hao: wah. got muscle.
me: haha. cheerleadign last time and band.
cheng hao: wah! hahha. can see muscle pop out. wuu. popeye the sailor man.
me --> trying to find the link and then....... HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
sya: cute. hahahaha.

okay. that's all. bye ppl!

Fif ♥ 8:21 PM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

just tyoing down the "Scope" of my later post. haha. not gonna type all now. ahha. :) so here's the scope!

Last Thursday

went mum's office
had lunch with her
stayed at her office
met her colleague, Elizabeth
talked to mum's security guard

2. Last Friday

met gerald tan
got a new bag from ink (thanks to him. -.- no comments)
guilty cause cant meet syakir due to busy schedule
received a necklace from aunt (love it)
did housework with mummy

3. So much to do -

300 words essay
500 words essay report
2000 words PP

4. Upcoming event -

meeting with PP advisor on monday at 5pm
Aqidah love's burfday on the same day! (ish!)
essay presentation
2 weeks' vacation
KL trip.

5. My current wants -

high cut shoe
shop till i drop at diva (hope to go with mum again!)
plead dad to give me $30
ask bro to stop to irritate me and start his revision
SIMS SIMS SIMS!
wuuuu

well, as u can see, my scope is kinda wide, and well.. expandable. ahhahaha! so, u shud knw wad to expect in the next post. hahhaa. gonna ELABORATE! wuuu. and aqidah love, yes. im gonna change song. to..... MICHAEL JACKSON! wuuuuu! :) hhahhaahaaah. ok. gtg now. toooodles!

Fif ♥ 12:53 PM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

she came with an empty thought. she never expect anything, but to have some friendship to him. she met him, watched him, talked to him, laughed at him. everything. she put the past behind her and she kept telling herself that she can move on. she kept telling positive things inside her head. she felt guilty inside. he had done so much good things to her previously and she thought she owed him big time. he had done everything out of his own willingness. and she was touched. but since things happen until it became like this, she felt guilty cause she shud not leave him totally like that. so in the end, she wanted to meet him just for once, to thank him everything and just to show some gratitude. she never had anything in mind about him wanting her back. all she wanted was friendship.

when she asked him about his life, he kept quiet. and all she wanted was a simple answer and explaination. but in the end, it turned out to be a cold war. and she swallowed that hard. she was so playful in that fast food restaurant, until she got him angry. angry till he left her. all alone.

she wanted to cry but she held back her tears. suddenly, she felt no love, no friendship. nothing. once again, he left her without a word. so in the end, she told herself that from now on, she must not feel guilty abt how good he is. anw, he did everything out of his own willingness. she got no chance to thank him and everything. he walked away, leaving her all alone to explore her inner feelings. she walked arnd, bought things that she've wanted and den exit the mall. she saw him sitting outside, most probably waiting for her. she wanted to approach him and ask him 1001 questions and even to thank him. she also wanted to tell him that that outing was the last one. she thought twice. without hesitation, she left him all alone there. she walked past him and she dunno whether he noticed her. and yes, she left without a word. without her realizing, tears roll down her cheeks.

on her way home. she left him a thank you msg. and that, was the last one. forever.

Fif ♥ 8:43 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

before i left for skool today, i went to bid aunty goodbye. went to her place a while. she's going batam with her family and all. awwww. i'll miss those kids! haha. :) hope they have a safe journey. =D.
yesterday watched qabil khushry qabil igam. ok lah. some moments very funny. some moments i can cry. hah. den aunt called up to go east coast. hang arnd there awhil til... 10? yeah.. den went home. :)

so there are a lot fo deadlines to meet. ugh. must finish writing report for M202. must finish up PP. and attend CE talks. goodness.

i hope i can cope. no one said it's gonna be easy, anw. -.-"

so mum didnt go to work today cause she need to go to adik's sch to collect his report book. and she msg me telling that she is disappointed with adik's results. in fact, me too. i dunno wad else can i do, to make him understand that he needs to work hard on his pcoming PSLE. -.- i think i got this last strategy. if he dun wanna listen to me stil, i got to hand him over to dad. well, u shud knw. ugh.

okay. no photos for now. and aqidha love, im so sorry for our late photo! i'm still sorting it out. hello? we took more than a hundred shots in less than an half an hour! GOODNESS. hah.

i think i shall end here. nth much to update, though. :)

i dun wanna procrastinate anything. but hais. headache!

now im assured. all this while, i dun regret what u have done. it's simply heart-breaking, but overall, it's worth it. :) looks like u like what's happening and u can be strong in this. if u think u are mentally strong to fight thru this, and u think that u can handle pratically everything, den let me show u that not even a single word of yours, can stab right thru my heart. :)

Fif ♥ 1:33 PM

Sunday, May 18, 2008

haha. it's 10 plus now and i am so so so so happy that there is no sch tmr. yes ar. hahhaa. so, yest didnt went out at all. just went to geylang with aunt. afternoon mum cooked and we stayed at home the whole day. was just fine. and today, im so so so so so HAPPY! (: i went SHOPPING with FAMILY. :) hhhahaha. we went marina square and walk walk arnd. mum and i went DOROTHY PERKINS to shop some stuffs. :) and in the end, i bought a BLACK DRESS, mum bought 2 TEES. spent $65 dollars in there. =D. im so so happy. i wanted to buy this BLACK SKIRT. very preety. bt it turned out to be short. shall consider. ugh. there were alot of aliens there. haahha. :) and and and, before that, we went DIVA to buy some accesories. mum bought 2 EARRINGS and i bought a RED BRACELET. i love love love! haha. we went to alot of shops. including this GOLF SHOP to buy dad's shirt. in the end, nth caught our eye. shall look more in LACOSTE for it. we ate BURGER KING for lunch and shared a burger with mum. :) adik has his own share, as usual. ugh.

after shopping at marina, we continued at suntec city. we went to look arnd at a lot of shops and nth caught our eye. haha. did some photo taking. -.- and we went back marina square. reached marina square, mum saw this SHOE from TINKERBELL. so preeety! she bought it at $16.90. nice nice nice. i didnt buy any cause no stock. irritating. hahahha. we dropped by alot of places lah. hahaa. we laughed and joke together. so arnd. 8 plus daddy fetch us. we went teh tarik at geylang to have dinner. and yaay. im now at home. hhahaha. happy to the max.com! :) wuuuu.

tmr i dun really intend to go out. wanna stay at home and watch teevee! :) hope mum will cook somerthing nice nice nice tmr. =D. ok. pictures! =D oh ya. pctures of me and aqidah wil be up later on. not now. cause im still sorting out the pics. :)

adik with his classin face. bluek.

typical. (forced by mum, btw. -.-)

LOOK!

wuuu!

fishy tanky.

i knew i will take this photo in a proper way, someday.

dark lah. aiyoh.

fun + irritating = STUPID.

mummmmy and adik. :)

Fif ♥ 10:05 PM

Friday, May 16, 2008

okay. finally feel like updating. hahaha.
so.. today i went tp. met up with aqidah first and we walked arnd tp. hahahha. that sch is really so happening lah. hahaha. i like...! no wonder ppl say RP can be boring at times. hahha. :) so since business sch is having their carnival, and mirah is involved, i decided to dropped by. syakir did not come along cause he had classes. haha. so aqidah and i went arnd a bit, saw mirah. and we saw this elmo mascot. hahah. and one unique thing abt this elmo is, the elmo have HORNS. omg. hahahhaa. looks more like a devil now. hhaha. ok. so aqidah and i went to the lab cause she needed to print some stuffs. ahahaha. =D and after that aqidah intro to me ebuddy. a kind of messenger. LOL. and u kwn wad? msn and ebuddy is GAY. really. i decided to label them that cause... they are simply not co-ordinating with me. and i hate it. -.-" hahha. ok. so.. in the end aqidah went off for her band and mirah, me and her frends went off to tampines mall to meet syakir and have a quick bite. :) had a great laugh with them! wuuu!

hah. oh ya. have i told u i made new frends from syakir's class?
on the left is their nick name that i gave and on the right is their actual name.
the mudpie guy - zheng hao
the movie guy - Davis
the punk guy - Daryl
the christian guy - Jin sheng
the china boy - Shi jie
the malaysian mummy girl of w25m - Ping
the comot a.k.a untidy "rock" girl - Rabiatul
the pious girl - izzati
the blurest-but-i-pity-him guy - wei jie
the guy with an alien slang - Farouq

hahhaha. each have their own story. look for me for info! hahhahha. all of them are so so so cute and funny! ok. here's a few convo i had the other day with some of his classmates.

WITH RABIATUL-
rabia: eh. why today all of us wear black ni? (referring to her, me and syakir)
syakir: asal? tak boleh? kau tu yang sibok! (why? cannot? u the one who is busybody!)
me: huh? black? oh. -.-

WITH DARYL-
me: hey daryl. what religion are u in?
daryl: i duno. my parents are buddhist. but i f****** hate christian ar! wth. f*** them ar!
me: oh ok ok. change topic. come. since when u like punk stuffs?
daryl: oh i like punk since...................... (blah blah blah)

WITH DAVIS-
me: hey. i like ur bag. kinda.. unique.
davis: (smiling) wat? my bag? the colour?
me: erm.. somethin like that? the design. cool.
davis: ARE U SERIOUS? omg hahahhahahahahahaha!
me: ya. erm y?
davis: hahahahhhaahahhaha, nth.
me: LOL. -.-

WITH CHENG HAO-
cheng hao: (talking to syakir) want some? (referring to chocolate mudpie)
syakir: oh... thanks.
me: why? not nice?
cheng hao: no. it's nice. but very filling. (and he smiled! awwwww)
me: (after he smiled) ouh. i see. ya. can tell.
cheng hao: (smiled at me and looked away. damn sweet lah, i tell u. right syakir?)

WITH JIN SHENG-
me: hey. u christian?
js: ya.
syakir: fah, isnt it obvious?
me: why?
(then i look he's wearing a crucifix necklace)
me: oh. i know he's a christian alrd)
js: hahahhaa.
me: BLEAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. sorry. brain off today.

hahhaa. yeah. so thats all. so.. i think, there's nth much more to update. hahah. have a long weekend and happy holiday! :) take care!!!! wuuu! pictures will be up real soon. =D

Fif ♥ 11:59 PM

Thursday, May 15, 2008

yes. i changed my blogskin, again. i dunno why these few days im so fickle minded. ugh. and i put up a new song. well.. the song is not new to listen to.. just that it is from the walt disney pictures.. BEAUTY AND THE BEAST. :) it's nice. it was sung by peabo bryson and celine dion. :) but i dunno why it started playing abit slow. well, all u need to do is to wait 20 secs. den it starts playing. :) i refreshed the page of my blog and then i counted how many seconds it began to start playing. and yes, it's 20 seconds. oh ya. i can watch it on yotube. yaay-ness. i wonder if i can watch cinderella in it too? hhaha. :)

and yeah. life has been fine (so far) .just that i need some time to settle some things. hais. i wish i can type everything down here. but it seems that i am not in the right mood to do that. and im runing out of energy. i dunno where i get my energy from. but all i need is energy. hais. there are lotssa reports i have to submit. lotssa deadlines to meet. omg. im so freaking stressed up lah, can? omg.

anw, im meeting aqidah later in the afternoon. i need her real badly. :( and she agreed to meet me. oh YES! :) she's been busy with sch and band lately. i knw how it feels, girl! :) and talking abt band, this big derick joined RPWS! hah. and he is so damn excited abt it. i dunno why. LOL. :)

nth much to update. no recent photos. but im meeting aqidah today and im preety sure we can come up with an album later. :) hahahhaa. take care then. cheers!

how i wish i can tell him what i wanted to say.
but looks like it will totally contradict.
so in the end things turned out preety bad.
and.. since he want it to be that way, i mean, this way, den let it be.
and... i really wish that things will get better. i really wish.
for now, all i need to do is to pick up all the pieces of me once again and then, i shall begin my story.

all i want him to knw that.. it wasnt a slap. it simply wasnt.

Fif ♥ 12:07 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

i'll blog tmr. thought of posting something long.. but. nvm. i'll just.. blog tmr. night ppl.

i just want u to know....

smileeee

irritating kid ever.

i just wanna be happy.

kiss kiss.

mum said.. smile!

ouh.

me, mum. happy mothers day!

when laughter was my medicine.

swallow it up, boy!

Fif ♥ 9:42 PM

Friday, May 9, 2008

I'M ANGRY.
I REALLY AM.

THOSE WHO TRY TO PROVOKE/IRRITATE ME, THINK TWICE.
IT'S EITHER I TAKE SOMETHING AND THROW IT TO YOUR FACE, OR I KILL YOU STRAIGHT AWAY.

and friend, being in a one-side relationship sucks big time. it really does.

now SCRAM.

Fif ♥ 1:15 PM

Thursday, May 8, 2008

i cant believe what i did, what i said and what i wrote. most mportantly, i cant believe wad happened. i feel like crying but no tears are coming out. i feel like screaming but i dunno to whom/what. i feel like hurting myself but it's sucha stupid thing to do. i feel like throwing things at someone but i dunno who. i feel like sitting all alone but im afraid of the lonelineess. i want to tell things to someone but i cant get him/her now. i feel like running away but i dunno where. i feel like... calling him and tell him im sad and angry at the same time but he wunt understand. now that's wad i called.. mixed feelings. i dunno what else can this brain of mind can think of. i thought last christmas i put aside and settled everything. bt i didnt see this coming along. i didnt knw that my feelings will change one day. i didnt know that things are going in circle. well. maybe i know. maybe aqidah knows. but i want to be happy mar. i simply want to be happy. he knws real well that i wanna stand by him always. i want to be with him like forever. but why cant he change a little bit to complete everything? why cant he understand what im trying to say all this while? why is he so cold somewhere deep down until.... i am the one who always get hurt? i want him to hug me close once again. i want him to be the nice cool guy once again. but why things happened this way? why things simply happened this way.. till.. i am the one who wants the separation. for the first time, i felt sad but im not doing anythign abt it, to cool myself down. maybe im stil hoping for him to come by and comfort me.

today's mum b'dae. i collected the cake at compass point with adik arnd 3pm. we stopped by at the library, ate at banquet, and collected the cake. we cabbed home instead of taking train or bus. for one whole day,i try to keep myself happy by doing other things. i simply try not to let myself drown in my own pool of sorrow. we cut the cake just now. just before that, i went down and gave him the letter. i wonder what is his reaction. will he read it? will he forgot all abt it? will he throw it away? will he pretend nothing happen? will he call me once he read the letter? will he msg me saying that things will be okay? will he even talk to me? :( since last christmas im so lost with lots of questions. i tried to smile and laugh in front of everyone. but deep down, im kinda disappointed. sad. frustrated. i dunno. cant we end things cleanly?

and i dunno why i put that pic up there. there is a reason(?) i dunno. i just dunno. i cant think. god. help.

Fif ♥ 8:26 PM

Monday, May 5, 2008

i change song again. -.-" i think this is slightly better lah. not so moody like the other one. hahha. :) ok. nth much happen. today met dear and went delifrance. so tired. and and and. tmr i got UT! irritating. anw, my phones have been giving me probs. i cant send proper msges. ugh. nvm. omg omg omg. my eyes going to close soon. HELP.

oh hannah, eliz, pei rong, i miss u grls. omg. can we meet up or something?! durign lunch or whatever. i so need u grls! we've yet to have our teatime together! -.- hhahaha. ok ok.

so dear is addicted to his PSP! hmph. lucky he havent dump me one side. hahhahaa. ok lah. shall update next time. :) enjoy the song. :)

this song was sang by ariel lin. :) OST of they kiss again. a taiwanese show which i LOVELOVELOVE~!

Fif ♥ 9:28 PM

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Ok. Here are more photos of Labour Day and some expired photos. Haha. LOL. just see the photos, okay? i will update later. im kinda whacked by PP last night and im freaing TIRED. hah.

EXPIRED PHOTO

this was taken at Sentosa. haha. was searching for this photo. ahaha. and seriously, i am SCARED of that bloody snake. it's cold and... erm. nvm. i dun think u wanna knw the feeling. haha! i think the snake is so comfortable with me, since i got tis fat molecule in my body. hahah!

i remembered i hold this star fish at the Underwater world. hahaha. so cute! well, my aunt works there and hell yeah, we had FUN!

this was taken at batu pahat. during some distant reative's wedding. i didnt eat though. aha. and that gorgeos lady beside me is my aunt. i love love love her. she took care of me since i as born. like a second mum! hahaha. well, she's the aunt that im talking abt, who always feed me ALOT. and i mean it. ALOT. the results? see my BODY. hahahahhahahahhahah!

WEEKENDS WITH FAMILY AT BOTANICAL GARDENS.

bro, if u are reading my blog, all i want to say is that... u look so bollywood in this. haha. wanted to tell u at night, but im afraid u might want to whack me for that. hahhaha!

NUR AFIFAH LOOKS RETARDED HERE. ok. move on.

and now, i look bollywood here. hahhahahaah! ((:

the ambassador of dog poo's plastic bag.
please collect ur dog poo using the plastic bag. hahahahaha!

nope. i wont be remembered this way. no way.

YYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHA! bro said i look like a convicted girl. haha. sweet escape, bro. sweetest escape. hahah!

good morning, love!

again, im not being rebellious. im beign stubborn!

hi turtle. it's me, fifah.

hey hey hey.
dont think i dunno, bro. i TOTALLY know wad u are up to.

CHANGI AIRPORT TERMINAL 3 WITH FAMILY.

yup. i went changi airport again, with my family this time round. hahaha. just the day before i went with dear, and the next day, i went there again with family. haha. they were asking for suggestion on where to go, after eating lunch at bedok corner. haha. so, since bedok is near changi, why not? ahhahaa.

ok. bro, look. dun get ur head swelled up when i say this. u look GREAT. ok move on. it's not as if u gonna pay back my $2 after said that. ugh.

yes. since my bro LOOKED good, the attention was not on me. and mum was actually kind enuff to take this. ugh. ahhahaha!

twins! hahah. no lah.thats me. and mum!

bro, its obvious lah. u dun wanna take this shot. -.-

and here goes picture of the day. (: as what my shirt says: GIRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN. and i mean it people. i really mean it :D

Fif ♥ 10:15 AM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

more pictures! hhaha. i'll find the time one day to update, okay? haha. for now,. take a look at the photos. LOL. these are the photos i took at changi airport terminal 3 (:

anw, reply to tags.
LP: hey. thanks! hahhaa. i miss you lah.! (: hahha. im doing just fine! ((: i hope u too! hahhaa. u look great too!

Genevieve: hahha. i knw u. my junior! LOL. hahha. ok. shall link u up when im free! (: